I first learned about visualization when I was taking a course by Belsebuub on out of body experiences and dreams. And while I had success projecting with other methods, I struggled using visualization for a while.
I think that my main problem was being too mental with it and while I would try to incorporate my senses into the visualization, somehow I thought that I lacked the ability to perceive what I was visualizing ‘properly’ and ended up convincing myself that I could not do it.
But after re-reading explanations by Belsebuub on visualization, I recalled an experience that had taken place shortly after I had started Belsebuub’s course that showed me that it was a lot simpler than what my mind had made it to be.
A Revealing Visualization
It happened during a camping trip with friends to Lake Sonoma. We had to kayak to get to our camping spot, and it was on steep a hill with some flat areas where you could pitch a tent. A truly beautiful spot.
We had spent the morning swimming in the lake, and so that afternoon, feeling sleepy, I decided to have a rest and found a nice spot not far off from camp.
I laid down and closed my eyes. I knew the nature around me, having camped here quite often in the past. I could hear the wind in the trees, feel some of the sun rays on my face, and listened to the other sounds of camp.
Using what I learned about visualization, I started to imagine all this in my mind – visualizing what I looked like from above, incorporating the sounds of nature around me, then slowly I expanded my sight to imagining the sun’s light reflecting and glistening on the leaves of the tree, seeing the camp as if from above, the tents and my dog playing down in the water below with others.
As I did this, the scenes in my mind became more vivid, and the tree next to where I was resting, was becoming more beckoning. I focused my attention onto it – as I did that, it felt like I was now very close to the tree.
I could see the trunk, the branches and I kept going up to it – up to its last branch, when I was looking there, I thought to myself, I wonder what the tree can see from this height, and I naturally started to scan the sights around me. It all felt so real.
I was now able to look at all the forests right across from our camp, I could see the rolling hills, the lake continuing behind which I could not see beforehand, and I then turned my attention to the back of our camp site, it was just the continuation of a steep hill.
I looked further, and saw that there was a field, with a fence – that the forest was not continuing as far as I thought it would. I was surprised.
As I came to this observation, someone in the camp called out my name and the scenery stopped as I opened my eyes.
It had been such an amazing and pleasant experience though – it also had been very quick – maybe only a few minutes at the most since I had closed my eyes, yet I had been able to see so much, to feel so much. But was it real? Did I just imagined it all?
The next day, my partner decided to go for a long hike – he walked toward the back of the camp, but came back not so long thereafter. When I inquired about it, he mentioned that while it seems the hill went up a lot more, it did not, and that he had stumbled upon a fence, and there was a large open area like a field behind it. But he also had found that there were trails which seemed to lead to other areas.
I was quite stunned – his descriptions matched most of what I had seen in my short visualization, except for the trails. Had it been by chance? Had it been astral projection? I did not think so, I was pretty certain that I had not fallen asleep – I felt I was on the verge of sleep, I had been very relaxed and comfortable, and when I had heard my name being called, it felt a bit like a jarring sensation, almost like a jolt to the system, but not like as if I had been woken up. So was it remote viewing?
In truth, I did not know what to make of it. And while I was surprised to see that what I had seen had been real, somehow I did not really know how it had happened and perhaps because of that, I actually forgot about this experience for quite some time.
I think that looking back, because it had felt so real, and been so ‘simple’ or ‘too normal’ of an experience and that in my mind, I had an idea that remote viewing must have been something like akin to super powers not like a natural yet fantastic phenomenon, it did not make me realize what had really happened, that visualization had allowed me to see something that I physically could not have seen yet was real.
Looking back, I don’t know how I could not connect my previous experience with the explanations in the course.
What I had learned: using the senses and getting involved in the scenes while staying aware and concentrated during the process of visualizing allowed you to see things as they are, and it matched what I had experienced, yet for some reasons I persuaded myself that I could not visualize properly, and I became very mental in my attempts thereafter, which made me unable to use visualization properly and especially hard to use to get to the astral plane for some time.
Thankfully, after re-reading The Astral Codex by Belsebuub, his words and descriptions brought back the memories of this experience and I started to put the two and two together. I realized that visualization was something after all I could do since I had done it in the past.
What I gathered from this experience though was realizing how I had put limitations on myself by believing that I could not do it. It just showed me how my mind can be such a great help but also an hindrance when it gets stuck by my own preconceived ideas or beliefs.