When I took Belsebuub’s courses, I had him as my teacher and he always stressed the importance of awareness and self-observation. While I didn’t mind self-observation as I was somewhat familiar with observing my thoughts in my head, I was totally alien to the concept of awareness and really struggled with it.
One day, I decided to practice awareness while walking near a highway for a change, instead of doing so in a park as I usually did. It was very different from the park experience because of the noise of cars, trucks, buses and the pollution, etc. Despite my negative surroundings, I decided to stick to my practice and went along the footpath quite close to the busy road. I found it difficult to start with, then, I remembered a few words Belsebuub had explained about reaching peace with awareness.
After a while during that walk, I started not to hear the constant traffic so much and I managed to reach a breakthrough point of total silence in my head. For once, I was actually there, present, not judging or being affected by my surroundings. Not happy or sad, I was just there in the present moment, almost as if time had slowed down.
I felt silence and an inner peace, something I had hardly ever felt in my life, I then noticed a truck containing dozens of sheep on the highway and found myself observing the cargo go by, then for a moment, I saw humans in their place, waiting calmly for something.
I knew the sheep were most likely heading towards a slaughterhouse but intuitively felt that it was their divine spark that personified as humans to me, in transit to their next journey.
My thoughts that followed were strange, I knew the sheep were heading to a horrible ending but rather than feeling sadness in this case I felt I was observing the cycle of life and death.
That vision remains clear to me to this day and I will cherish it forever. Belsebuub is so right, practice and you will be rewarded, be aware and you will activate your consciousness and therefore harness the benefits of its virtues. I can only thank him for dedicating his life to passing on these teachings.
In this video, Belsebuub talks about how we can see the spiritual reality beyond the material world.