One night, I found myself waking up in the astral with Belsebuub’s Being already present there. I was familiar with the location we were in, as it was a building I was helping to renovate during the day.
But here in the astral, it was quite dark unlike its physical counterpart. Seeing the state of repairs it was in, I felt that it represented my own inner state of being, and my work upon it, and that it still needed a lot more work!
Belsebuub led me over to a file cabinet. It looked like an ordinary filing cabinet, and inside were records of people and actions. After passing over some files of other people I knew (I knew I wasn’t meant to read their files), I picked up my file, and suddenly a curious question occurred to me.
During the day, I was learning about the egos, and how different egos (like fear, gluttony, anxiety, and so on) can appear spontaneously. The question that occurred to me was about a specific time in my childhood where there was a funny situation, but I couldn’t really see any ego in it.
I flipped to that page on my file, and to my surprise I saw with exact precision the inner state that I was in, down to the percentage point. I was amazed to discover that things that seem so subjective here are tracked and monitored objectively in the higher dimensions.
We went on, and I saw this funny-looking cartoonish animal. I recognized it as a particular ego, one that I didn’t have a lot of insight into. Just by looking at it and its features, however, I could understand a bit of how it works.
It’s kind of like how a cartoon character can exemplify something like aggressiveness, cockiness, or fearfulness, in fact it was almost exactly like that.
Since that time, I’ve seen animals like that at other times, and it has always been very helpful to see them in what I think of as their ‘raw’ state, as it shows me what “monsters” are living inside of me, and from a different perspective.
Shortly after seeing the ego, my dad joined us, whom I understood to be my spiritual father. Belsebuub took us flying over the ocean, instructing both of us on different things as we flew. I don’t remember much of what he said, but I remember seeing some beautiful miniature islands formed of stacked stone, with waves coming over them, and some palm trees on them.
They were so lovely and peaceful. I knew intuitively that they only existed in the astral, and that they could exist in the physical world, if humanity were in a more spiritual state.
You’ve given me quite a few things to think about and explore from your experience. Thanks, Julian, for the insights and passing on what you learned. The part about your inner state being noted so precisely to me clearly shows how our time here on Earth is very much like a school: we either progress a little bit each day or fall back even more. I really notice how, when I tune into a certain inner state that I want to work upon, situations in my life play out to bring out various aspects of this defect/ego. It’s really pretty cool to get such “tailored” help, if I can call it that. Life then takes on such a direct and clear purpose this way.
Those are interesting experiences Julian – thanks for sharing them. It’s thought-provoking to think about the detail to which our actions in daily life are noted and recorded.
What an interesting experience. Sometimes I imagine the beautiful things that could be if humanity truly wanted it. If beauty was more valued. I wonder what the purpose of those islands was.
It sounds like a beautiful experience, thank you for sharing Julian. The little islands must have been especially captivating, thanks for the illustrational image too!
Julian, that’s such an incredible experience – err, couple of experiences rather!
It’s quite interesting how precise spiritual beings can be in documenting our psychology. Amazing what the world must be like when viewed with an objective psyche!
Those islands also piqued my interest. It is a shame we don’t have those sorts of islands in the physical world: sounds like it would be nice to go meditate on them 🙂
What an inspiring experience Julian! Thank you for sharing 🙂
Very interesting Julian, thanks for sharing that. I guess it makes sense that the divine can see a certain percentage, how much of a certain ego was present and when, but it’s just incredible to ponder. It also really hits it home how much life is just a construction for us to learn to overcome these states.
Hi Julian,
What a great experience you had with your own being and the being Belsebuub! It was also great to read how you learnt something new about an ego state, which would have been very beneficial towards your inner work.
Thanks for sharing.
It is interesting how meticulously we are tracked. It must take so much effort to record all that information, and we (at least I) can barely pay attention to my psychology at the most obvious parts of the day.
However, when I do see something it gives me happiness to move past it and be free of its way of living. I wonder what significance they give this compared to something like being successful at my job.
Thanks Julian. Helping out with such works, studying yourself within during them, getting shown the important inner states to work on at the time in the astral, being taught by Belsebuub. The whole environment seems like a great time of beneficial inner learning.
This was quite fascinating to read Julian. It’s remarkable that even the percentage of that inner state you had as a child had been marked down in the file with such precision. This struck me most in your account. It’s definitely something to reflect on, how it seems that all our thoughts, feelings and especially actions here are seen and recorded in great detail in the higher dimensions and we are or will be held accountable for them. It gives a different sense and flavour to each moment we live – it isn’t that there are ever meaningless or boring or mundane or empty moments, but in each we are doing something, whether it be conscious or subconscious, and we could be changing, becoming better, understanding ourselves more. Each moment is an opportunity.
I wonder what was the purpose of those islands, like what was it about them that made them spiritual in such a way that they couldn’t exist in the world right now with the current spiritual development of humanity?
This is also what grabbed my attention. I haven’t considered it from that view in a long time. And Julian’s account shows it so clearly.
Even though in everyday life and how the world normally operates, what we do with our inner psyche might not seem to relevant, but in fact that is the essential thing. I can imagine how that ‘vague’ thing that is our psyche is in fact extremely clearly and precisely measurable over there. Not only our percentage of consciousness, but also the precise degree with which we allow ego states, the exact amount of effort we apply according to the strength given etc.
This struck me as well Laura. It feels like something to remember, that every moment is important and an opportunity, like you said.