Most of my life I experienced some kind of ill health which was mainly orthopedic related but later on in my twenties I was diagnosed with a very debilitating condition (called fibromyalgia) for which I was told that I will have it for the rest of my life. I was devastated and as the illness progressed physically my mental health was deteriorating as well.
The Learning Process
The only medications that were available for this condition were very strong painkillers and one type of antidepressants which in smaller doses was shown to help reduce the nerve pain, which together with extreme tiredness was the main symptom of this illness. I had to stop the nerve pain-relieving drug after just a few weeks as it caused my already affected cognition to deteriorate. The only drugs that I could take now were the very strong painkillers which I had to take often during the day so I was able to function to some point. Although most of the time during the period of about 10 years I was housebound or bedridden.
Over the most part of this period, I was searching for a way to heal naturally as conventional medicine had failed so far to treat these kinds of symptoms.
I also realised that the healing process is a lot more complex than what I first thought – it wasn’t just about what I thought, felt or ate. For the most part, it was about my ability to free myself from the cycles of pleasure and pain, to free myself from seeking comfort especially in what I ate. To free myself of these things would take a very long time so I realised that I needed a special kind of help that I couldn’t find here, in this dimension of living.
Answers to my prayers came in all sorts of ways. The most powerful and memorable of all was in one of my dreams – I was lucid and lying on a bed surrounded by divine beings all dressed in white long robes floating in the air – they were all male beings and I realised that they were working on my healing. I woke up with a very good feeling and felt very grateful for their divine help but mostly amazed. Later on, I came across information that there existed divine beings of medicine and that we can pray to them for healing. Although I didn’t specifically pray to them, it was amazing that they answered my prayers in such a way.
I didn’t feel instantly healed but what followed after I feel it was a result of that experience. Around that time I was experimenting with various dietary and natural medicine ways. The herbal medicine that I was taking worked only temporarily, so I kept looking at what was missing.
I realised that what was missing was the strength and determination to bypass my desire for comfort through food. Although I was already on a very strict diet by that time I didn’t want to let go of eating certain foods. That strength and determination were given to me by the divine but above all, I felt that they also prepared my body and mind for the physical process of healing. Also, I was able to recognise quite instantly what would help me and what wouldn’t – something that seems to be very important as one can get lost in all of the information that is offered in terms of natural healing.
I have learned so much through this experience of ill health and the benefits of prayer but what stands out is the feeling of gratitude that I feel for being able to do daily things in life, such as walking and standing on my feet for a longer periods of time and also being able to just feel fine and not having some kind of a headache or pain or extreme tiredness.
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